The Signs That Led me Back to Trust the Process

A year later and post grad life is still rough. I moved to Los Angeles and landed a full time job. What more could I want right? Despite my full time job in an awesome startup company with cool perks months passed and I suddenly felt unfulfilled. However, I know living up here is where I'm supposed to be in this time of my life. The city leaves me with inspiration constantly. I see art everywhere. In every person, every wall, and every crack in the ground. 

But I felt unfulfilled because my head was filled with so much inspiration but I couldn't figure out just what to do with it. I have an aching desire to do more, achieve more, be more. Yeah...I know. I might sound like just one of those eager millennials wanting to change the world right away. But no, I assure you. It was something else. I felt this strong pull towards a different line of work. For months I tried to figure out what exactly that was. And trying to figure it out was weighing down on me HARD. I looked at all my passions, interests, and skills. I knew I wanted to use them but as I looked at job description after job description I couldn't help but feel like there was no one box I could fit into. As each day began to pass I began to get frustrated with mundane routine I was falling into which made the process worse. 

I was suddenly COMFORTABLE and that made me uncomfortable. Finally I began to come across more interesting opportunities. Each one that came my way I would think...THIS IS MY DREAM JOB! THIS IS MEANT FOR ME. And I would dive all in. Spending 10 hours on my application perfecting it and going above and beyond sure that the position was undeniably mine. Only to be rejected and crushed. However, I rolled with the punches and continued to walk with my head held high. I remained confident that I was being redirected to something better. Then the signs began to roll in. I was coincidently running into signs from strangers, murals, books, and interactions. And then during one of my low days, it came to me! In the rocky process an idea came to me and I realized what I want to do with my life. It's been a couple days since that idea has emerged and my mind has been overflowing because I don't know where to start and I don't even know if I should pursue this. But a song popped up on my facebook timeline just as I was sitting in a coffee shop. It's a song that I often go to when I'm feeling directionless and doubtful of where I'm headed. And the fact that it popped up today is a sign and it triggered me to write this post: 

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown, where feet may fail
And there I find you in the mystery
In oceans deep, my faith will stand
— Oceans - Hillsong

So if you're lost, feeling directionless, or even wondering if you're in the right place in advice to you is to just keep swimming! Trust in the process. Let go of that fear. Good things are coming to you.